Asking for forgiveness

For being a coward

For not answering

For not wanting

To see you again

For easily avoiding

Everything that's tender

In order to protect

My creativity

And myself

Your way of deconstructing

Me

Into loose parts of

Anger, jealousy and weakness

Anxiety and mindlessness

My suffocative way of

Trying to control you

Not giving you space and air

Caging the wild horse

While all it needs is

Freedom and adventure

Are the transparent arguments

For leaving pieces

Floating in the air

Maintaining illusions

Sweet memories and

Passion

Perceiving reality soothing

With thousands of unsaid words

The true reason, however

Is the fear

That I feel

If I see you

Again

I will not be able to restrain myself

I will dissolve in you

Again and again

Creating chaos out of pureness

Hatred, obscurity and anguish

So here I am

Asking for your forgiveness

For being a coward

For not answering

For not wanting

To see you again

For easily avoiding

Everything that's tender

In order to protect

Your freedom

And yourself.